Isan's Journal

  For so long I had waited I'd kept my faith I believed in it It can't possibly be what people paint But then I got it And I realized why people ran from it It's like a lifetime subscription to tears Definitely not my fit Love could be a crossroad But a decision still needs to be made You can choose to stay It could end up not being a façade The decision is yours to make The step is yours to take Whatever your heart may wish Determines your mental state

  It's not hard to see, q uite easy to understand Everything can work out, i t's just your frame of mind Not everything done is essential, and n ot all opinions are relevant You need to understand that no situation is fatal It might seem that way now But that's from your point of view Look through a different angle You'll discover something new It might not be as easy as it sounds But with time, it will come through Forget about what others say And know; all that matters is you

You had me chained up, c onstantly ready for you to use But I didn't care,  I was ready to take in another bruise Young and dumb,  I believed every lie you told Smitten by love, I  bought every word you sold How stupid I acted, I cannot even comprehend How pathetic I was, I didn't want to believe your pretend "That's not true", I said. "He loves me" But you never came back, and I knew it was never meant to be I should have listened, they all told me to do what's right What did I say? "I'm ready to go under without a fight" Damn me, damn you; damn the thing called emotions What is wrong with me? Why do I do things irrationally? I won't sit and feel pity for myself, not anymore I don't care what part of me I live behind, I will fight my way out the door