Self- sabotage

 I've self-sabotaged

I had friends, at least I thought I did 

We talked, we joked, we gossiped 

Everything was exactly as it seemed

No intrusive thoughts 

The picture looked so clear through my clouded eyes

I had nothing to worry about 

It was safe to depend on others

It felt nice until didn't 

A crack came up

It didn't seem like it could do any harm

So, I overlooked it

A stain smudged my white dress

No one will notice if I just covered it up

So I hid it

"Should you be doing that?"

There it is again, the voice

But it had a different tone

Mistakes never did so much damage

Everything would be on the right track if I just repaint the lanes

I can't go back to when I didn't have this

I need to preserve it

The glass case I protected them in shattered

So, I got q drape to cover them

"You don't realise, do you?"

I don't have time for you, voice

My white dress became unrecognisable with all the stains on it

So, I just got a new one

"You'll get worse if you continue on this path"

I'm done listening to you, voice

A heavy wind blew away the drape

It left my 'friends' standing without protection 

My new dress tore

It left me standing naked in the open

"Do you see now?"

You are persistent, voice

I stood there, I waited for them to prove voice wrong

My friends didn't come to cover me

They didn't even care, they mocked me

It was then I finally realised 

So, I picked up my torn dress

Not a word, not even a goodbye

And I walked away without looking back